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Twas early morning,
before Dawns early light.
I was returning home,
after a long partying night.

I was exhausted, but
still feeling all right,
trying to go to bed,
and to turn off the light.

Had to go to Seattle,
once more, once again
to provide security,
for a very close friend.

I love the mountains,
I love the shore,
but at this moment,
I love you more.

I love the smell,
of the Sea air,
but most of all,
I love your hair.

The fire was dwindling,
to black ash and flame,
nestled in the fire pit,
where embers will remain.

You are a vision,
I see in the whole,
your beautiful eyes,
capture my soul.

Thank you my dear,
for being my friend.
This is a friendship,
which will never end.
At least not for me.

What persuaded,
a sad, old man,
to fall in love,
once again?

Was it a desire,
for companionship,
a reason to laugh,
or infatuation?

A one way love,
will never last.
There is no future,
just a past.

I am in love,
one more time.
It's not right,
she's not mine.

It makes no sense,
to feel this way,
for she is young,
I'm old and grey.

There is nothing wrong,
having a young friend.
It's just started/began,
it won't last, it will end.

Does this make sense?
Nothing about it which I see,
but time will pass.
It will be over for me.

Here I sit,
counting my blessings, once more.
How lucky I have been, in life,
yet I still want more.

More relationships,
I realize, I may be reaching,
for something, not possible.
I will keep on searching.

My thoughts
are racing to scenes.
Afloat in a Sea
of broken dreams.

Dreams my wife had,
about what we would do,
when retirement came,
and have a trip or two.

Those days were numbered,
we didn't know,
she'd have lung cancer,
and away we would go,

to 10 years of Dementia,
a most challenging scene,
of my beloved's life,
Alzheimer's destroying dream.

Now it's all over,
she passed away.
I remain here, alone,
waiting for judgement day.

Innermost, the corners
of my mind,
Lie deep emotions,
which I'll find.

Loss of love,
at deepest point,
surpassing grief,
do not anoint.

My mind will heal,
what my heart cannot see,
using those memories,
of what used to be.

Memories of happiness,
memories of we,
when we loved others,
and when I loved thee.

Why do the memories,
so precious to we,
vanish this quickly,
fading into infinity?

God, how I wish,
I could go to see,
when happiness was measured,
by my love for thee.

I'm touched, by your kindness.
Happy you are my friend.
A great love I have for you,
helping my broken heart mend.

What price is love,
when what you've known,
has gone away,
and happiness has flown.

Where does one go,
when your love is lost?
There isn't enough money,
to ever justify the cost.

I won't know about today,
I won't know about the morrow.
I know without you,
there won't be a tomorrow.

When Worlds collide,
like yours and mine.
If the love for another develops,
the World is now fine.

I had a terrible loss,
you provided comfort,
to me when I was lost
and you provided support.

I lost control,
letting myself go,
slipping into comfort,
when I should have said no.

I apologize for my error,
of complicating your life.
You never complained,
when I brought strife.