Was It a Shock

Was it a shock,
or a hidden fear,
when I was told,
"Less than a year?"

"Three to four months",
not wanting to hear.
I won't be around,
not even a year.

Wait one! I'm the one,
who's dying,
so why are you,
the one trying?

To take all the
minutes and time,
away from me,
my family entwined.

A grand gesture,
I most certainly say,
but thank you NO!
Not on my day.