Early Mornings
A Comment by Loy
Nice poem
I would rise before the Dawn, to jog,
in an attempt to improve my health
Lights in the distance,
pillowed softness,
cottony droplets suspended,
in a milky sea,
sound of distant autos running,
muffled by the blanket of fog.
Trees and shrubs, an
occasional person, shrouded
with white, reflective vapors.
Fog lifts from ponds and marshes,
sounds echoing across the flat.
The explosion of two ducks, rising
with squawking beaks and drumming wings.
These are the memories that I remember
from those days of long ago,
when I was young.
The excitement comes
from anticipation.
Not a choice,
I would relish,
for the dissolving
love of friends.
Why must we choose
between two friends,
we both love and trust?
The hurt that is seen,
the pain, that is not,
is hard to understand.
Why those whose love
had been, for years,
now has turned into sand
and dried up tears.
When I was a young man,
I wanted to kiss.
Now I am an older man,
Recalling what I miss.
When we think
Of days gone by,
Should we think again
And always try?
When the days of life
draw near the end
and the light within
begins to dim,
when the breath of
those,
who live today, draws short
while the body withers
and dies.
Will you remember
the times that were
and of the love we had?
Memories are special.
They can take us back,
to a time of less stress.
A good thing.
A lonely tear, slides down my cheek
as I think of this life of ours.
It pains me when recalling you,
now the tear has become two.
I am not weeping, there is no more.
Just the tick of a clock.
Cars always
made my heart beat,
faster. They still do.
I am fascinated by an old car.
A Model S2000, from Honda you see,
Get's the blood pressure up, for me.
Not too practical for me, to be at
But reminds me when I had my Fiat.
A Fiat Spyder, Model one twenty four,
French Blue in color, four on the floor.
A convertible top with two latches to click.
I could drop the top, sitting in traffic.
A great toy, that I did really enjoy.
The S2000's I see, makes be feel like a boy.
May all the thoughts,
I have about you.
Special thoughts as
ordinary thoughts won't do.
You were my heart,
my soul you were,
for it was always you,
my one and only her.
Saying goodbye,
has become tiring,
exhausting me,
in the process.
Dealing with it,
on a daily basis,
yet wanting to
bring closure, but not forget.
I know my beloved is gone.
I know it well.
My current path has become,
a pathway to hell.
I search for a word,
but it has been taken.
Why do I look
when my hearts broken?
Alas, he sits,
with a chagrined grin,
"What's going on,
with my thoughts, thin?
Is this a piece of
the grieving process?
If it's not,
then, I am a mess.
I don't want to be,
with anyone now,
as memories are raw,
or I just don't know how.
Old memories
of days gone by.
We don't recall,
or know why.
I hear an echo of words from the past.
I'm writing them down; as they come too fast.
Down to the paper where they stick like glue.
Some are good but they number a few.
Words can be like chaff in the hay,
Some last forever, some gone on this day.
The echo of words, I hear in a song,
Brings back the voice of my Father
Who for many years has been gone.
Words that are not laced with fear
But old words that I hold most dear.
I need time,
to be alone,
yet, I need people,
one on one.
A good dilemma,
not in my book,
for as I speak,
let me have one look.
A someone who,
who could love me too,
the way I would
love to do.
It's a quarter to four,
in the morning.
Why am I not
in my bed?
Probably because I have
all this work in my head.
Does that make sense,
when I want to cry instead?