Magazine Posts

A time in life
of lost memories,
erased, no longer here.
A marriage made of
memories cherished
by one, forgotten
by another, no longer
retained. What is the
feeling, I have now,
when there isn't an answer,
to affirm or disavow?

I need you now,
more than before.
I listen to you
while you implore,
to take you home,
where I'd like to be,
there on the morrow,
here is best for thee.

Far away
across the sea,
I ran away
to let you be,
the best there is
from far and wide,
to provide a kiss,
when you decide.

I saw a shadow,
in the hall it did appear,
it's when I realized,
that Death was near.

When words become weapons
and hurtful to you,
strengthen your resolve,
it's what you must do.

Don't rely on others,
who aren't loyal and true,
for the outcome in life
is a dependent on you.

You control your destiny,
have loyal friends, a few,
believing the good things,
know and trust you.

My wife, who has Dementia and I,
have been married many years.
We have two children who are
Now in their 50's.
Having a conversation with her,
And she turns to me and asks
A question, I hadn't heard before.
"Do you have any children?"
My wife was admitted to a Memory
Care Facility on January 3rd 2022.
These last several months have been
Difficult. More for me because she doesn't
Remember. This time will pass. I feel
Blessed that she can still talk to me.
Dementia and Alzheimers is an insidious
Disease.
I write to help myself to cope with the
Emotional baggage which is included for all
Caregivers out there. You are not alone.
Bless you all.

You tell me you love me.
I know it is true,
For knowing you,
Is the best thing I do.

Words leap from my mind
but stick in my throat
for I am too lame
and will never emote.
Writing the words
is the easiest to do.
It's the spoken word,
sticking , when I think of you.

A light in the eyes,
windows to the past
memories shared with others.
All these should last
but Fate can be fickle
and what was to be
are all the lost dreams
which are in my memory.

You rang today.
I wasn't home.
No message was
left on the phone.

Do you love me
as you say you do,
or am I a fascination
of a friend you knew?

Loving you always
is what I must do,
for you are my life
and you know, I Love You.

Her hair cut short,
her eyes aglow,
her smile will tell
her love for you.
When day is done,
when night drops in,
cherish your moments
as memories fade.