A Point

I'm at a point in my life where,
I need to fall on my sword,
due to the confusion in this state,
which is not a great award.

I have been married so long,
I know not how to behave,
or even what is good behavior,
not to mention being brave.

I don't recall many things, such,
as how to be romantic,
it's causing me frustration,
to the point, I might panic.