One Moment
A Comment by Susie
❤️
One moment alone,
is all I ask, to be with you.
To see the smile on your face,
and those brown eyes, too.
So many years we lived together,
in good times, bad times never,
oft forgotten as we would make up,
and be the loving couple forever
The mind can be a terrible place,
as thoughts, with worries, enters,
to interfere with the logic of your mind.
Never fear. Think and believe, you will see.
Words, that I thought, were long dead,
Are now swirling around, in my head.
My mind is like and empty bin.
Words go out and come back in.
Words, mostly of love and sometimes grim,
Are fat and meaty or very thin.
What meaning, does that provide to me,
Is thus: What will be, will be.
It's the little things,
I miss most in this new life.
When my love, my rock
is no longer here. My wife.
Your breath's, warm softness, touches my cheek,
As I lie along side of you.
My search for you, is what I seek.
Reaching, for the warmth of your body
but I awake and you are gone.
What happens,
when you're told,
"You're very sick, now,
but hey! You're old."
Just one moment,
is what I say.
If you can't be positive,
please go away.
I feel better than
I have for years,
so please don't,
bring up old fears.
You've lived a long life,
isn't that enough?
Well, ok, so what?
I will be tough,
I will fight,
this dreaded disease.
When I win,
I'll be at ease.
A time of life, I am now aware,
for I know about when I will leave,
this world. Stage 4 Liver/Prostate Cancer,
a statement about your life's end.
At this point in time friends, always
important are more now than ever.
Let us talk, of love and friends,
The ones, that do not require amends.
The friends, that worry about your wife,
The ones, who know about your life.
My friends are, of the caring kind,
And the best help, for my mind.
Thank you friends, for thoughts so dear,
I am lucky to have you near.
At this stage of life,
another step toward,
the final outcome,
of a life lived, with joy.
I will no longer allow, myself to succumb,
To that path, when I was young,
Fearing not, if I lived or died,
For it mattered not, if I tried
To have drinks, dance or race cars,
Beneath the dark sky, with sparkling stars.
My memories, of these events, grow dim;
My youth, is no longer a whim
Or fancy affair of daring, so odd,
As I have now, finally found God.
Praise the Lord, for these wonderful things,
As I truly do live amongst kings,
With friends, of long standing, near,
No longer, is it death I fear.
No matter why,
I need a reason.
All I need is to talk,
about you. Tis the season.
Stay strong, my friend,
you must do so every day,
for if you weaken,
your dream goes away.
I have too many words,
stuck in my head.
Some about youthful dreams,
and about looking ahead.
Why look ahead,
you have been told the news,
"Your life choices are over,
You can no longer choose."
I can still find a way,
to fight this disease, and choose,
a path of courage,
to win and not lose.
I choose life,
above all the rest,
to fight the good fight,
by becoming my best.
I will not quit.
I will not stop.
I will continue to fight,
until I tire and drop.
I will get up,
arise from the fray
and live my life,
until the end of my day.
A chalky dust, coated the shelf,
where memories once stood, alone,
Each with a story.
A story of hard work, dedication,
and devotion to training.
Six days a week with one day off.
Running 7 to 8 miles per day, except
on Sunday, when the distance
was increased to 10 or 15 miles.
Memories, reappear, about the pain.
Running a 10K or a marathon.
It was work but very joyful,
when you finally finished. Then it was
more like an extended jog.
Why am I hesitant to tell
My siblings, my cancer is
Terminal?
I have come to grips with the diagnosis
Of stage 4, liver Pancreatic cancer.
I will fight this to the end. Life was
Sweet. Now the hard part.