Indeed I Am

Oh yes, I am,
a lost ship
without a rudder,
not in command.
I move in circles,
no destination
in play,
as every moment,
brings my emotions,
out to the ledge.
I'm walking now,
the fine edge
of my sanity,
for like a Judas,
I will soon betray thee.
I try hard
to bear not the guilt.
My life's goal
has started
to fade,
as I realize
the mistake
will become
a World without
you by my side.