I'm Tired
• 03/18/23 at 07:13PM •I'm tired.
Waking at 3:30,
staying in bed,
until 4:20.
Getting up at 5:55,
how did I spend
2 plus hours,
before showering
and getting dressed, then,
off to breakfast.
Retired for many years and now re-discovering some writings, from long ago, along with new endeavor to help save my soul.
I'm tired.
Waking at 3:30,
staying in bed,
until 4:20.
Getting up at 5:55,
how did I spend
2 plus hours,
before showering
and getting dressed, then,
off to breakfast.
The days grow long,
with nights retreat.
Days are warmer,
a Spring treat.
I thought I had my emotions,
under control.
I was mistaken.
The ugliness of this disease,
is beyond description.
She got mad at me,
wandering away.
I messed up, by not going
after her.
She went into the kitchen,
of the Dining hall and was
yelling at people.
I went and returned her to
the table where our dinner, was
waiting. She didn't want to eat.
I managed to get her to eat.
She had calmed down.
I took her back to memory care
and she got mad at me. Not sure
why. She cussed me out, told me
to leave, etc.
So, I did.
Now I sit in my room all
teary eyed and upset with
myself. I do not like myself,
at the moment although I
do understand, it probably
wasn't anything I did.
Sorry for the laying this out
for you all.
Thank you for your patience and
understanding.
Down through the valley,
across the great divide,
I will wait for you
at evening tide.
My favorite spot,
will always be,
at Cannon Beach,
on the Pacific Sea.
We have gone there,
for so many years.
No longer a destination,
gone with the fear,
of never seeing you,
the way I did then,
when our love was fresh
and where it began.
To love again,
may never come.
That will be fine,
I can enjoy someone.
Conversations are enough,
to work my mind,
meeting others, perhaps
one of a kind.
Trying to stop,
using the time,
avoiding the
sing, song rhyme
I tire now,
of writing verse.
Perhaps my words,
need a hearse?
Have the words,
lie in state,
hoping them
to be sedate.
I care not,
for what you say,
for I am lost,
my mind gone away.
Long are the nights,
without you.
Sleeping alone,
without you.
No warmth in bed,
without you.
I never thought.
our life would end,
this way.
Living alone.
The news is out,
it made the scene.
Todays the day,
wearing the green.
I see you, afar,
suspense weighs supreme.
I will wake soon,
finding it was a dream.
Why in this world,
have we now met,
when love or romance,
is not an issue?
For me or you,
friendship occurs,
when two souls meet.
It shouldn't be an issue,
in this, the life we lead,
for conversations are healthy,
no matter what you believe.