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Living today for tomorrow.
What if tomorrow never comes,
while all the yesterdays,
are no longer here.

I visited my wife again today.
The Care Givers, had taken her
to her room and placed her in bed.

There was no recognition of me.
No beautiful smile. Just a simple,
"Who are you?"
I sat and held her hand.

My eyes tend to seep tears when
I sit with her. I think how close
we are both on the final journey.
I am saddened for her and I.

The hard reality
of life and death,
hit me between the eyes
when I saw my wife,
laying on a hospital bed.

The tear ducts needed a
good cleaning. They came
through for me, today.

I can feel depressions,
creeping in,
an overpowering sense
of sorrow as I faced
the finality of life.

I have been avoiding,
going to the room as
I was fearful of dealing
with the true reality.

I can't say I am better
but do feel I have closed
the gap between my
expectations and reality.

Out the window,
over the door,
whomever it was,
don't live here no more.

Dreaming....

A soft, light rain,
fell from above,
bringing freshness,
to flowers I love.

I'm lonely. It's 3:30 AM,
and thinking of you.
Moisture in my eyes,
while thoughts from
my Childhood, echo,
"Big boys don't cry".

Why can't I cry or
get angry? Why must
I try to be strong.
You can no longer
see my sorrow,
nor can I tell you,
right at this moment,
how much I miss you.

Where my heart goes,
my soul will follow,
be there obstacles,
deep or shallow.

My love grows within,
like water I swallow,
and with the land,
so rich and fallow.

I trip the light fantastic,
when I believe I can dance,
discovering my old muscles,
shouldn't try, no chance.

If I write you a letter,
would you still reply,
if you had feelings
for some other guy?

You sit alone
in a dining room chair.
Lonely you are,
does anyone care?

A breath of life,
a tired sigh.
Are these words said,
when you die?

Memories of long ago,
have gone away.
No remembrances now,
no thoughts will stay.

I would do tomorrow,
what I did today,
no longer with the sorrow,
only here to say,
I love you.