{"id":196240,"url":"https://www.kudos365.com/news/196240-here-i-sit","short_url":"https://www.kudos365.com/news/196240","headline":"Here I Sit","content":"Here I sit, in this morass,\r\nof emotional baggage.\r\nThe twist and turns, in this\r\nnew life are overpowering me.\r\n\r\nForced into decisions, I don't want.\r\nPlaying with my head,\r\nwhen what was real,\r\nis now certainly dead.\r\n\r\nI find myself withdrawing,\r\nfrom a good life.\r\nI still see family but find\r\nthe closeness, starting to wane.\r\nHe's the old guy, who is becoming\r\nmore work than I need.\r\n\r\nI am still polite but do not,\r\nhave discussions with\r\npeople about changes to the way\r\nI was. Color me pitiful and sad,\r\nas I drag my blanket.","content_plain":"Here I sit, in this morass,\r\nof emotional baggage.\r\nThe twist and turns, in this\r\nnew life are overpowering me.\r\n\r\nForced into decisions, I don't want.\r\nPlaying with my head,\r\nwhen what was real,\r\nis now certainly dead.\r\n\r\nI find myself withdrawing,\r\nfrom a good life.\r\nI still see family but find\r\nthe closeness, starting to wane.\r\nHe's the old guy, who is becoming\r\nmore work than I need.\r\n\r\nI am still polite but do not,\r\nhave discussions with\r\npeople about changes to the way\r\nI was. Color me pitiful and sad,\r\nas I drag my blanket.","published_at":"2024-05-21T07:19:03-07:00","updated_at":"2024-05-22T21:47:37-07:00","author":{"type":"Person","name":"MFish","url":"https://www.kudos365.com/profiles/297670-mfish"},"description":"Stay up-to-date with MFish on Kudos365. View their post published May/21/2024 on Life Stories - Memories. Browse your favorite topics and share your expertise, too.","type":"post","image":"https://k365pi.imgix.net/site/square-kudos-share-image-300.jpg?fm=jpg\u0026auto=format,compress","likes_count":18,"comments_count":1,"categories":[{"name":"Life Stories - Memories","url":"https://www.kudos365.com/categories/1002-life-stories-memories"}],"schema":{"@context":"https://schema.org","@type":"CreativeWork","url":"https://www.kudos365.com/news/196240-here-i-sit","headline":"Here I Sit","image":"https://k365pi.imgix.net/site/square-kudos-share-image-300.jpg?fm=jpg\u0026auto=format,compress","author":{"@type":"Person","name":"MFish","url":"https://www.kudos365.com/profiles/297670-mfish"},"datePublished":"2024-05-21T07:19:03-07:00","interactionStatistic":[{"@type":"InteractionCounter","interactionType":"https://schema.org/LikeAction","userInteractionCount":18}],"subjectOf":[{"@type":"Thing","name":"Life Stories - Memories","url":"https://www.kudos365.com/categories/1002-life-stories-memories"}]}}